*sigh* Why is it that I already feel as if I have been doing this for ever? I can't wait for the PET (Peritoneal Equivalency Test?) that will let the PD clinic know if I qualify for the night-time cycler. And more important, IF I qualify for the cycler, how much fluid, if any, I will have to fill during the daytime... If I'm VERY VERY lucky, it will only be just enough to float the catheter (barely felt); if I'm not lucky, I might still end up doing daytime exchanges... I CAN'T WAIT FOR Dec 26th!
And do you know what all this washing of hands ALL THE BLOODY TIME has done to my poor hands? My skin is cracked and peeling, and no amount of cream or lotion stops the flaking and itching. Yes, you read that right - my farking HANDS are flaking and itching (looks like I have dandruff of the hands). My solution for that is to use disposable latex gloves - I remember the PD nurse telling me that even if I use gloves, I have to treat them like my hands; in other words, even if I do wear disposable latex gloves, I still have to wash them for 2-3 minutes with antibacterial soap, use the Purell where required, etc. Fine, so what if I feel silly washing gloves - at least this will allow my skin to heal and get back to being merely dry.
In fact, by day 2 of my PD training, my hands went from being soft and only requiring lotion once daily after my shower, to looking like the nurses' - dry and wrinkled and old and needing moisturizing cream after every single exchange. It doesn't matter if the nurses' hands look old - they are in their late 50s. My poor hands have got so dry that even not-very-fine cloth catches on them (like I have miniature velcro hooks in my palm *grr*). Now I have to remember to wear gloves while:
a. Rinsing out my catheter belt
b. Doing the dishes
c. Doing anything else (except showering) that involves water
The list of things I have to do is becoming endless - as it is, it takes me 2 hours from the time I get up to the time I come downstairs for breakfast, ready to go out for the day. Roughly one hour to finish my morning ablutions, showering and replacing the exit-site dressing, and then at least another half hour to 45 minutes doing my morning exchange. I really really really REALLY resent the 1 hour and 30 minutes of lost sleep. With the cycler, I will be able to do my usual (and required) 9-10 hours uninterrupted sleep time; having to get up before 8 in the morning, EVERY SINGLE DAY, is really getting me down.
Sorry to end this post on such a downer, but I am thisclose to losing it, today! I miss Amma! And I have to wait 6 long months before she can come back. :(